It's been almost 3 years since I've updated, and I think it's time to bring the blog back to life for a bit!  In the past 3 years, the baby is now no longer a baby, we've lived through a worldwide pandemic, I pulled all my kids out of school and homeschooled for a full year, and now we are about to welcome baby #5 into the family!  So... many big changes!!  

I am currently just about 36 weeks pregnant with baby #5, which is our little surprise gender baby!  I have no idea boy or girl, and the kids are so excited and can't wait to meet him or her!  I kept wanting/meaning to get around to doing maternity photos this time around, especially since this is the LAST Bartlett baby, but I just didn't get around to it!  So I took my little sidekick photography assistant Riley out on a little walk with me and had her take some photos!  

Baby's official due date is July 10, one month from today, but we will see if he/she decides to wait until then or make an earlier arrival.  I've just now started getting more cramping, which has happened in the last several weeks of pregnancy with each of my kids, so who knows.  

One more belly pic from earlier in the week. Not long to go, and if I had to guess, I think this baby will definitely be over 7 pounds, but under 8 (my other 4 were 7lb 6oz, 6lb 4oz, 7lb 4 oz, 6lb 11 oz, in that order!)

Yesterday was my baby shower!  I never really thought for a second that I was going to have a baby shower over here, mostly because I don't have a ton of close friends quite yet.  But, Mark's mom (Megan) organized one for me anyway!  It was supposed to be a surprise, and it was also originally planned for a few weeks ago, but it didn't exactly work out that way, so I did end up knowing about it in advance.  But there were a few things that were kept hidden from me!  First of all, look at the diaper cake made by Mark's mom!

And some decorations...

In case you can't see, click on the first photo... Megan hung diapers on our curtain rod that spell out "ooohhh baby!" We had some good snacks, and played some funny baby games.  The funniest one was probably the one where we had to race to drink about 100 mls of apple juice out of a baby bottle... with no hands.  It was tough!!  But it was pretty funny, and I am proud to say I came in 2nd place. :)  Megan got some pictures of it all, but I don't have them with me, so maybe later you can see us in action.  I also heard all kinds of different birth stories from my neighbors, and got some pretty cute presents!

In case you can't tell from the pictures... the first one is from our fellow soccer-loving neighbor.  The Phoenix is Wellington's professional soccer team, so they got our little baby a phoenix outfit!  Next we have a cute stuffed octopus/musical toy and shoes, and the one on the right is a handmade cushion/ floor mat for baby to play or lay on.  My neighbor made this herself, and it's perfect for laying the baby on our hardwood floors so she has some extra padding.  And it's pretty cute too!  We also got some other miscellaneous toys, a warm winter outfit, and some essential lotions/shampoos/toiletry items for baby.  All in all, a very fun evening (with lots of leftover food)!

Then this morning, I had my very first "morning coffee group" with the other couples in my birth class.  One woman has already had her baby, the rest of us are still anxiously waiting!  I found a couple of people that I think are pretty similar in age to me, and we got along quite well.  Maybe I can make some new friends after all!  This coffee group will be meeting every 2 weeks, so it's likely that by the next one, there will be a few more babies born! 

Remember that scene from the movie Aliens where the alien emerges from that pregnant lady's belly....  (at least I think that's the movie... it's one of the many Alien movies).  THAT IS HOW I FEEEEEEL!!!  This baby is trying to escape via my stomach!!  

Even Mark can feel how strong our little babe is, pushing against my belly.  Only 4 more weeks to gooooo! :)

Holy cow, 36 weeks already!  I know you all can do the math, but that means only 4 weeks to go!  AND only one more week until I am considered full term!!  

How I'm feeling:  It's funny, sometimes I feel GREAT, pretty much normal (aside from the large bump in my midsection), while other times I feel really uncomfortable and tired.  So I'm not uncomfortable all the time by any means, which is nice for me!  Night time seems to be the worst, because trying to sleep has become such a pain, and my hands/fingers hurt A LOT all during the night and then for the first hour after I wake up.  So weird.  Then the finger pain is totally tolerable during the day, which is quite strange.  I get tired a lot more easily, and I notice if I am standing or doing a lot of things and I get too hot, then my toes swell just a little bit.  But this only happens like once or twice a week.  I have stopped wearing any sort of rings on my hands because I never know when my fingers are going to swell a little bit, and I don't want to risk having my ring get stuck!  Still no signs of stretch marks, but my belly button is getting flatter and flatter by the day (but is NOT an outie, despite what Mark might try to tell you). 

This week I start having weekly midwife appointments until baby gets here!  At this upcoming appointment in two days, I have to get tested for Group B Strep... it's fairly common (I think I read it's present in 20-40% of women), but it can be dangerous for newborn babies.  Basically, if I test positive, I have to be given IV antibiotics during labor, and have to make sure to come in to the hospital right away if my water breaks.  I REALLY don't want to be hooked up to an IV during labor! And of course I don't want our baby to be in any danger, but that's pretty rare if I'm on antibiotics, so I'm not really worried about that so much.  Anyway, we'll see what happens.

Labor signs? I can confidently say that the baby has moved lower, or "dropped," although I don't seem to look very different, but I could be wrong.  My only evidence is (1) I haven't felt any baby parts in my rib for over a week (which was a daily, painful experience prior to that) (2) I can feel the baby much lower down (3) I went for a walk the other day and sort of felt like I was waddling (4) the heartburn has pretty much gone away and (5) my appetite has increased!  I have also been getting some menstrual-like cramps, which according to my midwife, can be Braxton-hicks contractions, or signs of early labor (not to be alarmed... you can have signs of "early labor" for weeeeeeeeks before labor actually begins).  How non-helpful is that!?  We're going to try and wait until July 5th to pop this baby out because my parents get here July 4th I think so that would be perfect timing. :)

Baby movements: Lots and lots.  Supposedly movements are supposed to slow down as "the end" approaches since baby doesn't have much room (she's about 6 pounds now!), but I haven't really found that to be the case.  The movements have definitely changed, but they seem to be just as frequent as ever.  And she moves a LOT when Mark talks to her!!

Food cravings: I don't know if it's because it's cold outside or what, but I have really been wanting chai tea lattes lately.  I try not to drink many because (1) the caffeine and (2) they are expensive!  But one or two here and there is okay!  Also, I'm really enjoying ice cream sundaes lately... as in vanilla ice cream with whipped cream and sprinkles and chocolate chips.  YUM.  Not the healthiest option, and could quite possibly explain the weight gain (oops), but it sure is delicious!

Weight gain this week: 1.5 pound

Total weight gain: 23 pounds!  I was hoping to stay around the 25 pound mark, but at this rate, I could be up to 30 by my due date!  We'll see!  I'm convinced some of that weight gain is more fluid retention though (hence the swelling), so that's alright.

In other news (sort of), Mark and I decided to get maternity portraits done the other day!  I wasn't sure if it was a good idea, or if it was going to be worth the money, and I've still only seen a few of them, but I am totally glad we did it.  I found a budding photographer in the area who was totally reasonably priced (since she's fairly new at this), and she was very excited to take the photos for us.  I sent her a few ideas of what I wanted out of maternity shots, and she managed to capture them brilliantly!  Now I was going to wait until we got all of them back before sharing any as kind of a surprise, but I just couldn't wait!  So I've posted one of them, and I should get all of them back in the next week or two (hopefully before baby gets here, because after baby is here I'm sure you won't want to see pictures of her in my belly!).

Also, just in case you are starting to forget what my handsome husband looks like... cheeeeeeese!

Yup, that's me and Mark!!  

Well, now that it's June, I can finally say that it's possible that we might have a baby THIS MONTH.  Now of course I guess it was possible that we could have had the baby in May, but I was really hoping that wouldn't happen, and obviously it didn't, but with an early July due date, a June birthday is actually a possibility!  Although Mark has made it clear he does not want to share his birthday, so I've been instructed NOT to let the baby come on June 24th.  Got it.

As it gets closer and closer to baby's arrival, I find myself with more and more things to do.  Some of them are stupid, or just small things, while others are very important and necessary.  I also find myself thinking about how weird it's going to be to be sitting on the couch in the evenings with Mark... AND a baby.  It's hard to really picture!  And of course, I've had my mini freak-out moments.  Like, where I go WHAT WAS I THINKING getting pregnant?!  We're going to have a baby?? And I contemplate all the "major" decisions I have to make.  I use quotations because, well, they are actually all really minor things that just need to be considered when raising a baby, but when you get in one of those freak-out moods, every minor thing becomes major, ya know?  Such as...

• Pacifiers?   To use, or not to use?  Supposedly they might interfere with breast feeding if given too early, but babies have a strong sucking reflex early on and pacifiers can be very helpful in soothing.  And we've all seen the 4 year old walking around with a pacifier, but then again, at least with a pacifier (as opposed to thumb sucking) I can determine when it gets taken away... It's pretty tough to get thumb sucking to stop.  Although thumbs are free, and convenient, and you don't have to worry about it falling out of baby's mouth in the middle of the night...  And little babies sucking their thumbs are soooo cute... until they turn 4 and still suck their thumbs... See my dilemmas?  Haha, I think I'm a pacifier kind of person, but who knows.
• Breast feeding.  I'm determined to do it, but am not really the type to be comfortable doing it in public.  Which means, am I housebound for the next however many months?  What if I want to play soccer again (the season goes October-December, and sometimes requires a day of travel), how is that gonna work??  I could introduce bottles (of breast milk) early on so Mark can feed the baby, but then what if she then only wants to drink from a bottle? Decisions, decisions.
• Our car.  Ok this has been a major source of stress for me lately, and maybe I'm overreacting (and I think it drives Mark crazy), but I think I have some valid points.  It's getting to be winter here (as in freezing cold and raining often).  Our car does not have a heater, or even a fan that works.  So obviously we can't warm up the car, and because not even the fan works (it makes a horrible, loud noise when we turn it on), we can't defrost anything.  So if we have a cold wintery day, and we have to drive somewhere, the windows get all fogged up and we can't even see to drive.  So the only solution is to roll down the windows, letting in cold air and rain.  Fine, we can suffer through that, but with a baby in tow?  I think not.  But I think it's going to cost hundreds of dollars to get it fixed.  Granted the window fogging problem is only an issue in the winter, but in the summer when it's hot, we don't have A/C either.  But then to get it fixed we have to be without a car for a while, which is not very convenient when I am 35+ weeks pregnant, have lots of errands to run, and could potentially go into labor any time.  That would be SO FUN to take the train into Wellington when I'm in labor.   Still working on a solution...
• Trip to the US in September.  Don't get me wrong, this was my idea, and I am SOOO excited about it.  But, I am also slightly stressed.  I mean, ok, worst case scenario: we have a colicky baby that cries for most of the flight.  That's the worst that can happen.  Well, no it's not, but the worst thing in my mind.  So i'm just hoping and praying that we have a easy going baby that likes the loud white noise of the airplane, and sleeps and eats like a champ.  Please please please.

I think that's it for now.  :)  Sometimes it just feels good to vent, and then move on!  Tomorrow I'm going to put up pictures of the finished nursery, so get excited!!  I have the next 4 days off of work, so I hope to accomplish quite a few things on my to-do list.  Woohoo!

A few days late.  But here you go.  I seriously feel like I am getting bigger every. single. day.

Oh the birth plan...  I've been asked a few times now if I have prepared a birth plan yet.  Well, no, I don't have a document titled "birth plan" to hand out to everyone who I might come in contact with while I'm in the hospital.  But I have talked with my midwife about all things labor/birth related, and she has notes of all my preferences, so that counts, right?

The "thing to do" these days is to create a birth plan.  Basically, a document with all your preferences and desires in order to outline your ideal labor.  Sounds reasonable I suppose, but it seems to me like people get these ideas of how EXACTLY they want their labor to go, and they write it all down, and expect it to actually go like that.  In some cases, it might.  But I think in many cases, your labor and birth are not really going to be exactly like you anticipate.  Especially for your first baby.  Like, I hear about all these people who wanted to go all natural, drug-free, but then if they end up getting an epidural, they are so disappointed and feel like they failed.  WHY??  See, for me, I actually am one of those people hoping to have a natural childbirth.  I say "hoping" because, well, I've never actually experienced childbirth.  I don't know what it's like, I don't know how my body will deal with it.  I may very well be able to have a natural birth, and my midwife and husband are going to try and encourage me to do so, because that's what I'd like to happen.  BUT, that said, if I get there and I am in such unbearable pain that I just can't do it, well, then drugs it is.  And I won't feel like a failure, I won't be disappointed... I tried, and it just didn't work out.  

Now you might be curious as to why I want to try and have a natural childbirth.  Before getting pregnant, I always thought those people who wanted to go all natural were (1) crazy and (2) hippies.  Seriously.  Like why not use the marvels of modern medicine, was how I figured.  After a little more research, I have come to realize a few things which are inspiring me to TRY and have a natural childbirth.  First, have you SEEN the needle they stick in your back?  See below... YIKES.  

Then, once you actually get the epidural, you have less pain (yay) but you are also sort of confined to the bed.  You need an IV, constant monitoring, a catheter, etc etc.  I want to be able to be mobile as long as possible (as in, not confined to a bed).  Also, depending on when you get the epidural, it may not wear off for a while after baby is born, and I do not want to still have to be confined to a bed until my body starts functioning again who knows how many hours later.  

More reasons... it's been shown that people who get epidurals are more likely to need a c-section or have worse degrees of tearing.  Basically it does its job in reducing pain, but can also reduce your urge to push, which means you just kind of end up pushing not based on any real input from your body, which can cause more tearing.  Not always the case, but an epidural increases the likelihood.  And, the epidural does actually affect the baby, although obviously if it wasn't safe then it wouldn't be allowed, so that is actually not high on my list of reasons why I don't want an epidural.  There are other potential more serious side effects, but I think they are pretty rare so those aren't really factors for me.  But those are my reasons, in case you were curious.

So this whole natural birth is an ideal situation for me, but I'm flexible.  If I get there and am like, WOAH, this is not what I expected, then maybe my plans change.  We will have to wait and see!  But seriously, look at that needle again.  So, don't call me crazy, don't tell me I have no idea what I'm in for, or that I won't be able to do it!!  :)  Just smile and wish me luck, and we'll see how it goes.  And if I get an epidural, then so be it!  Only 7-ish more weeks to go!  It is getting so close!!!!